Fillip Kosorukov, plead GUILTY, today 5/19/2021, to the crime against me perpetrated on 4/18/2018. Over 3 years after strangling me, in my home, stone-cold-sober, from behind— has admitted his guilt. For years he has gotten away with lying, manipulating friends, family, and those who were meant to ‘protect and serve’ that he did not do what he did. Today those who insulated him, victim-blamed me, and introduced him to more victims: YOU need to look in the mirror.
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Fillip Kosorukov currently uses Fill Dimitri on FB, or dmitry_dimitri on IG as of 5/2021 but tends to introduce himself under fake names or his middle name “Dimitri".”
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It should be noted that Fillip Kosorukov was allowed to move to Lakewood, Colorado during this trial. He was not forced to come back for the hearing, and in fact he was only give 6 months of “unsupervised” probation. Why is that important? Because now it is up to the community of Denver and the surrounding areas to be vigilant. He was barred from consuming drugs, liquor, or entering a liquor establishment. This includes nightclubs that make the bulk of their profit on the sell of liquor. He is not allowed to own or posses a firearm. BEWARE. His criminal history has a vast range of charges: kidnapping to include a child under 18 years old, attempted murder, battery, assault, domestic abuse, and so much more including crimes related to drug distribution.
Today, along with this update, I will update this site with my victim impact statement, because what is posted on here has not been fully updated, out of fear the system would fail me further.
In addition, I was told the site is “messy” but my goal has never been a “nice looking website.” It has been a place for me to come and purge the reality of what it is like being a survivor seeking justice and a place my mom could find out what happened should she find me dead one day. Originally created when “justice” failed me, in 2017, but turned into something more for other survivors to #SpeakUp.
We must never silently allow the systems to lable us a statistic. We must also address folks, police, communities, systems, and friends/family that insulate prolific predators like Fillip Kosorukov. The impunity with which he acts is expatriated by those who allow these abuses to happen unchecked. How do we ‘build better’ when we fail to address the insulators of abuse and violence?
IF YOU SEE SOMETHING, SAY SOMETHING!
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My Statement to the Court:
Your Honor, may it please the court:
There should be no such thing as a “likable” victim. No one should ever be subjected to violence . Our judicial system should be set up to protect everyone, from folks who participate in sex-work to disabled veterans, from elderly to LGBTQIA folks. Yet at almost every turn in this journey the same people who have dedicated their lives to protect and serve have failed me. From probation and parole letting Fillip violated me while he was on an ankle monitor— unheeding my calls, to the Attorney Generals office— who has conflicted their office by employing lawyers who are married to folks who simultaneously work in criminal prosecution— Fillips first legal team Assad Law. I have not been able to trust the Victim Impact Center because Legal Aid is directly tied to some of the same law offices that take on the cases of our abusers.
So, here I am. The last step in justice. Over 3 years from the day I was strangled in my own home. After you rejected the rules of your probation officer, continued to stalk me, you manipulated your way back in my life by publicly humiliating me, then begging me to “talk.”
Fillip, on 4/4/2018 you thought you could tell me about all the women you had abused and I would allow you to stay in my home. Hearing you speak about women with delight in your abuse was too much. When I asked you to leave, I wish you would have gone and never come back. But that is not what happened.
In taking your belongings to the door with the hopes you would leave, you strangled me, put me in a chokehold, from behind, in my home, as I watched color fade. The praise of God for my sister-in-law and her Craw-McGraw course. I knew to do everything in my power to fight you off, and still when I got free— phone in hand to call the cops— you manipulated me. Using the power of the fact that your mother, Olga, is a police officer and I had broke your phone, given to you by her, you threatened me and my future. Then you proceeded to stalk me: from my house to my mothers.
You are a manipulator. Going to school and getting good grades, historically, does not and has not stopped you from harming women. You had straight A’s on 4/4/2018. You manipulated your probation officers, Eric Nagel & Michael Hallberg. Mr. Hallberg even got on the stand and spoke for you when you plead the 5th, staking claim that “you wish you had never met me.” But the facts are you wouldn’t let me go till I left the actual state. My PhD program saved my life. I finally felt safe to tell my story to a professor who told me to “call the cops— the real cops.”
Still, you wouldn’t have gotten this far without a lot of people insulating your behavior. Turning the other cheek. I tried to get away when you were in prison. I asked you to stop calling me. Your sisters called me asking me to let you back in. The day you got out of prison your mother called me, knowing I asked you to stop, again asking me to meet you at the bus stop. These family members seemed to believe your stories, and I believed them. I feel back in again.
When I finally got away, you smeared my name to anyone who would listen, but didn’t talk about me— the woman who you gave power of attorney to— who turned off your bills when you went to prison, or car-pooled your family to visit you, or put money on their phone cards when they couldn’t afford it, who told you to “build family.” You never spoke about the version of me who helped you into college, inspired your program, visited you in prison, put money on your books, worked with your family to get you into Men’s Recovery, and loved you.
I loved you.
I loved you to the point that I was easily manipulated into believing the lies. The lies that you changed, you were better, and the worst lie: the only reason you ever harmed another was because of drug use. The day you strangled me, on April 4th 2018, you were sober. In your words you “just snapped.” The saddest thing is to-date you’ve gotten away with it, with impunity.
The website I created in 2017, as I know it will be brought up, was created the first time probation and parole failed me. When I attempted to get a restraining order— BY THE suggestion of YOUR probation officer, so YOU would stop stalking me. When this fell through, I thought my mother would find me dead one day. So I wrote. From there it grew into a beacon for other women who have come forward about similar atrocities brought onto them by Mr. Kosorukov. A sounding board that we are not alone. Documentation that serves the next person you harm, of a failed system. Attempts to get me to take it down are extensions of your belief that you possess me.
Today, your honor, I only ask that you uphold Fillip Kosorukov’s inability to own or posses a firearm for life. To pull from history, incarceration has done nothing but teach Mr. Kosorukov violence, and helped him hone in on his ability to lie and manipulate. It did not service in rehabilitating him. As the State has prepped me, the greater odds are this finding will just be another mark on a long wrap-sheet full violence and drugs. If this is all the justice that is due, than so be it. I just pray that Mr. Kosorukov’s ability to find quicker ways to harm others are deterred.
What will happen in the future when, as Mr. Kosorukov stated, he has another “knee-jerk” reaction? It is clear, in 2018, the ankle monitor and active-supervised probation did not stop the darkness inside of Mr. Kosorukov. In fact, a month before our original case, in 2019, Mr. Kosorukov took images of himself strangling another woman. Praising it as “art.” Posting other images of men strangling women, publicly, continuing to glorify and justify the abuse.
If there was a party that wished they never met you, it is me. If I had met you one month prior I would have met Ashley, another victim of yours. This could have saved me over a decade of heartache. Instead, my ability to trust a person standing behind me without fear will never go away. When a man makes demands, my initial reaction is to cower. Everything is now compounded. What use to be a “black” object from war in my nightmares is now clearly your face. Your face when you swing, hit, scream, and stalk. You showing up at my mothers home, a safe place for almost 30 years, will never be a safe-place for me again. Not since you stalked me there. The foothills of Albuquerque will never be safe, as that is your safe-haven of insulators. The integrity of Probation & Parole will forever be tarnished. My ability to trust those who “protect and serve” has been destroyed. My therapy will continue to move around healing and how to insure I stay safe above all— in a world that sees violence against women as “business as usual.” I will continue to use writing as respite and advocate for survivors.
Your strangulation art was captioned “remove the title of victim” and that is easier said than done. It is rare a day that goes by I don’t think about it what you did to me. New Mexico is small and your tentacles range far and wide. Justice is key in moving forward. It is up to Your honor, and this court to decide what that will look like. I just ask that tangible hurdles to potential catastrophic violence are put in place. If this is all I can ask, as you’ve been allowed to move out-of-state, than this is what I seek. I pray you get help, with a therapist you can NOT manipulate. Moreover, I pray you never harm anyone again. But this is just a prayer.
I’d like to thank the court for allowing me to speak.
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The pages below this are unedited from the original creation of this page, and the few times I updated it. As I do not feel like reliving the trauma further, if you are uncomfortable with the layout or “messiness” of it please remember, that’s not the point. The point is to speak my truth. In addition, it has been up since 2017. Everything on this page is backed by recorded calls, emails, texts, images, and more. All true.
Again, be safe out there, be vigilant, and SEE SOMETHING SAY SOMETHING.
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Fillip is someone who likes to use fake names, [8/17/2020 Edit] “Fill Dimitri” on Facebook and “Russia” or “@tattoosandchill” on ONLYFANS is my domestic abuser. Below you will read about the awful things he has done to me and other women in the community of New Mexico. For the sake of court, I am keeping this update at the top of the page, but I implore you to read on if you are googling his name or if someone has given you a link to this site: There is a reason.
**For those in Colorado, I want to acknowledge that our judicial system is so broken that Fillip Kosorukov who then strangled me while on that ankle monitor was ALLOWED to move to Denver (or the surrounding area of) Colorado. YOU now have an abuser who, unless caught— and I mean caught in-action by police because PO and the judicial system has shown so-long as its proven “after the fact” it DOES NOT MATTER, is going unchecked in your city.**
Today, 8/17/2020, I was supposed to face my abuser. It has been over two years since he strangled me in my own home after I asked him to leave. On the 21st of this month it will TWO YEARS since I came forward to police about the abuse. There is a massive failure in our judicial system. I was told in court by his probation officer at the time, Michael Hallberg, while trying to get an order of protection AGAINST Fillip that I was “obsessed” with him. WRONG! I am obsessed with justice. I have gotten into my PhD program for American Politics. I have my MBA in Social Work and an MBA in Business. I have worked alongside the ACLU and National Association of Social Workers. I have worked in the Roundhouse. I have advocated for legislation. I cannot help but realize that Fillip is but a cog in a system that allows abusers to roam free. While black folk get a foot to the neck for an alleged fake $20 bill, or shot to death for sleeping in their beds. Our system seems to allow WHITE ABUSIVE MEN to harm with impunity. WE have all been in lock-down longer than Brock Turner served for raping a woman behind a dumpster.
OUR SYSTEM IS BROKEN.
Fillip not only operates an OnlyFans, but he and his cohorts thought it would be funny to post his page while the Governor of NM was giving updates on the death-toll due to COVID. So, if you are reading this wondering “Why does she know so much about him?” well, he puts it out there.
Every subscriber, photographer, model who believes in “safe-sex-work” yet are funding and helping one of Albuquerque’s abusers of women and a horrible human— you are part of the insulation that allows the perpetual wheel of violence against women/folks to go unchecked. I challenge you to look inward and ask yourself if this was happening to your sister, wife, grandma, friend, or loved one would you still be ok with the level of support you give to someone who has been found guilty to the facts?
What is justice but the compilation of people devoted to doing the right thing?
Furthermore, while I write this update it is time to upload (and I do so with the permission of another survivor) proof that as of 2020 Fillip was held accountable, to the extent the law will allow, due to statue of limitations for the harms caused to another victim Ashley B. (who by the way is disabled as well). She will never get to go up against Fillip in criminal court. She was, however, granted an Order of Protection in 2020 which the presiding judge went on record to document that she fully believes the accounts of Ashley B.. Fillip tried to appeal this finding and lost.
This account provides evidence that I am not alone.
While there are many women in my inbox letting me know the harm Fillip caused them, I am not afraid to use my voice. Additionally, unless in todays society, unless there is an active case people don’t want hear the accounts of the other women because the law protects predatory behavior unless women want to subject themselves to exactly what I am going through. I can clearly see why women and abused folk stay silent.
However, more women/folk should use their voice because:
“When victims remain silent, monsters are able to create more victims.”~ Unknown
For my part in not calling the cops ON 4/4/2018 I apologize to every women he has hurt since. But, I am now coming forward.
I end this edit of the website here, on 8/17/2020, with this:
Fillip is out there. Fillip is unchecked. Yet, Fillip is just a cog in a system that is very broken and it is broken on the backs of women. Domestic abuse will continue to be one of the leading causes of death in the USA and around the globe if we do not correct the course of justice. I have kept the receipts all the way from Probation and Parole to the Attorney Generals office on how they have failed me, this case, and the women who cross the paths with the predators they refuse to acknowledge OR WORSE have “conflicts of interest with.”
THERE IS NOTHING ON THIS PAGE THAT IS NOT BACKED BY A MOUNTAIN OF EVIDENCE AND PEOPLE TO CORROBORATE THE ACCOUNTS ON THIS PAGE.
I welcome anyone, everyone, all naysayers, all survivors, any interested party to please go to NMCOURTS.GOV. Click “Find Case". Then simply enter “Kosorukov” into the name and push “search.” You will see his criminal past, and the current case that is pending.
Lord knows when my day will come in court, but just as you will read below: In August of 2018 I wrote “Why a Website?” and I acknowledged that his PO, and the system is currently failing me. When I started this website in 2017 it was because my first request for an order of protection (at the request of his probation officer at the time, Eric Nagel) failed in the courts. Stalking is not a crime, it is unbelievably hard to prove, and it is a tool that makes women feel helpless to their stalkers to the point they feel forced to befriend & allow these abusers back into their world because it is perceived as “less scary” to just cave in. THAT is #WhyIStayed.
I have faith that the judicial system can work. I have faith that one day women will be able to hold their abusers accountable without having to “going viral” or “call-out culture” to feel safe. I am all about this new world of women being true to their realities, because if the people in our lives wanted us to paint them with flowers and rainbows, than they shouldn’t have behaved as abusers and monsters.
REMEMBER:
#SpeakUp #MeToo #TimesUp #DomesticViolence #Survivor #WhyIStayed #BelieveWomen
This concludes my 8/17/2020 update. [end]
He use to go as “Roman” on 2 of his 3 Instagram handles or "Phillip Romanov" or "Eric Alec”. He avoids using his real name to skirt the public (women) from knowing who he truly is. This website is to correct that. He is a repeat violent offender in the state of New Mexico, habitual liar and manipulator, self-described sex addict, who told me he was diagnosed and took medications for bi-polar disorder. Who when we were together refused his medication/therapeutic treatments. drug addict who will never tell you the truth of his life.
[edit 9/9/19: since the updating of this site Fillip has removed all of his Instagram handles. It seems that he wanted ALL the public attention, until the truth was placed square center of his quest for manipulation and control of the narrative.]
If you are directed to this site it is so you may know him AND his crimes better...
I wish the average woman had a chance to save/defend themselves from monsters, not just the famous women. #METOO
9/19/2019
EDIT: For the first time I will update the site to show my own personal struggle with Fillips abuse as we prepare to go to Jury Trial for his strangling me from behind in my own home, sober, and purely provoked because I asked him to get out of my house, and when he refused I got his phone and began walking it to the door- thinking he would follow his property out, but instead he charged me. Ignorantly, I thought he was charging for the phone (as the recording of Fillips own words “he saw the phone and only cared about his property”) so I threw it but Fillip did’t go for the phone. Instead he hit me from behind, placed me in a choke-hold from behind. I went to remove his arm with my dominant right hand, and with his left hand he held my hand down while continuing to strangle me with his right hand and arm. I had to fight him off with my left hand and by stomping on his feet and kicking backwards toward his groin. He begged me not to call the cops on that day and I fell for it. He told me I would get in trouble for breaking his phone. I quickly replaced his android phone with an iPhone and even got him the black protective case he uses now on my old iPhone SE. Coming forward about my direct abuse has been the hardest thing in my life because like most domestic violence victims, I loved him. I also saw him on visitations for 5 years in prison and I was conflicted about putting him back in our incarceration system. However, this was my biggest mistake and biggest regret as I have come to find out that I AM NOT ALONE and Fillip HAS NOT CHANGED.
For those of you who want to disavow the site or don’t believe women I WELCOME YOU to come to the jury trial. Unfortunately, it wont be 9/16/19 as his lawyers are playing the continuance game though they were the ones who asked for Habeas Corpus in March (which means an expedited trial).
The new court date is 01/07/20 @ 9:15am in Metro Court room 620 [12/13/19 edit], if this should change again please keep an eye on nmcourts.gov and use his real name and DOB (Fillip Kosorukov, 9/12/1990) and you will be given the information as to new docket date, room, judge, etc.
Below I will post updated images of what Fillip has been up to in this past year. His behavior, disregard for the law and victims. I will also be uploading supporting documentation from other women who have reached out, and this website has been updated with an email you can contact me at if Fillip Kosorukov has hurt you too. My support group and the team of Times Up women would love to hear from you.
TO ALL: Please remember that domestic violence is one of the leading causes of death of women in the United States of America. It is time we start taking violence against women seriously. Especially in the case of REPEAT OFFENDERS.
If you cant find the email link it is: embeddedthoughts12@yahoo.com
This is the unauthorized autobiography composed by memoirs, verbal accounts, public social media posts, recordings, letters, emails, [EDIT]calls and messages from other victims etc from Fillips Kosorukov. All accounts are true and can be backed up upon further inspection. Below you will read the story of Fillip from [EDIT] early life-2019. Some of the audio and video is a little long and graphic, please bare with it. The audio is the most telling of who Fillip Kosorukov is. *TW*
NOTE: at 18 seconds Fillip puts his hand into boxing stance and swings at me. His ankle monitor is visible in this video. This video is a refresher from 2017 listed below. How can I alter this footage? I cant.
Believe VICTIMS:
… 18 seconds in. 18 seconds.
Below are the images from 2019 showing the true character of Fillip Kosorukov. While fully aware that he is heading to a jury trial for strangulation, he decided to pose for, post publicly, and endorse photos of him as well as other men choking women. THIS GOES TO HIS 2019 disregard of the legal system, those who fund his lawyers, the judge who monitors him, his victim, as well as all the women of New Mexico and those around the world who have faced abuse and domestic violence.
Proof of violating probation while his ankle monitor was removed and partying:
This next section is a summation of some of the stuff you will find from the original creation of this site. In case you do not have to listen to believe. Here are Fillip Kosorukov’s admissions to hurting me and other women.
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BEWARE THIS IS GRAPHIC:
In addtion I want this update to show, for those who think the women are lying or the bad guy- especially me, the manipulation on Fillips part to pull me back into his violence time-and-time again.
I could post over 100 images from text and emails asking Fillip to leave me alone. I even tried to get the courts to file a restraining order against him in 2017 because he was stalking me… However, I’ll post this simple conversation where I asked Fillip to leave me alone and spend time with his friends and family. I constantly tried to get him to get help, grow his support, and act right. Just as the videos, recordings, and messages below this update will show. Here is an example of how I would try… try and get away. I even had female neighbors try and help me, whom will vouch that he stalked me at my house and when she tried to help me he called her a” Femi-Nazi” as she forced him to leave me alone…
For the last part of the 2019 update to this site, I want the public to see Fillips current and past history as legally shown and available to everyone on nmcourts.gov and I also want to highlight his current underground drug behavior and how all of this clashes with yet another hypocritical post about Fillip Kosorukov being a “feminist” when he is actually a terrorist.
[Edit 12/13/19] In civil court this section was brought up against me so I want to edit it and explain WHY this is important for me to post a note to potential employers. Fillip became interested in the helping fields (Psychology and Social Work) because I encouraged him to look into these fields when he was in prison and even assisted him in the application process when he got out; as I, whom Fillip later admitted guilt to victimizing, hold an MSW and this field has many vulnerable populations.
When Fillip manipulated me into believing he had changed and lessened his actions for arriving in prison, I told him that he could “help” people like himself (incarcerated folks). However, I was being manipulated. I was being told he “changed” and he was someone he wasn’t. I have messages where Fillip apologizes for “not being the person he told me he was going to be when he got out of prison.” As someone with a Masters in Social Work I gave him the path into the a field that has MANY vulnerable populations. I would have NEVER done so if I had known then what I know now. Thus, when Fillip talks about going into social work my skin crawls. I helped him work his way into another pool of potential victims. For that I am forever sorry. Therefore::
To potential employers, schools, and those whom Fillip claims “changed behavior” it is important for you to evaluate the facts.
I would hope that all photographers know that the sharing of these images are to protect the general welfare of the public and document the false, fraudulent, and abusive behaviors of Fillip Kosorukov at the cost of my own safety, freedom, and attacks by your very own community.
A recap of his violent history as shown on public record:
A message from a friend. Hypocrisy at its finest::
To the people reaching out to me:
Please stop coming forward if you have ill intentions. This case is a serious matter. When you reach out to me and tell me you want to help me improve my website, and want to show me screen shots of Fillip admitting to violating probation I am not going to keep your identity a secret because you are afraid of “blow-back.” Fillip is a serious predator and in serious violation of the Judaical System. When you reach out to me, then to his PO, but you fear Fillip so you lie: you make this whole thing harder. The following is an example of just that. Someone else in the community contacting me, then lying to Fillips new probation officer Michael Hallberg by saying “I sought you out” and we are “friends” and that you want to be anonymous YOU MAKE THIS HARDER. YOU MAKE IT LOOK LIKE I AM TRYING TO DO THINGS I AM NOT. If you want to come forward, do it!
If you have witnessed Fillip break the law or violate probation then contact his PO, not me. If you are a victim, come forward, be in court, email me- I’m here for you. But I am not here for people who in one hand want to contact me and take down a predator but fear the community that insulate that person. That behavior puts my case in jeopardy.
Unfortunately his current probation officer does NOT care. Apparently Fillip can admit to violating and people other than me can come forward in the community but Fillip is the exception to the rule of law.
EDIT] On 12/12/19 Michael Halberg took to the stand and admitted to Fillip saying he was in bars, but Michael told the judge these bars were like Chili’s. When he was told that Effex Nightclub IS A BAR that gains its primary sorce of income from liquor, that does not serve food, he got quite. When I asked him about yelling at the cop I had called to my house he said he never yelled at the cop. Even though the police report says he got “curt” and also the police officer took the stand next to say that Michael did yell at him. Lastly, when Michael was questioned he admitted to Eric violation Fillip in August for talking to me when he wasn’t supposed to be talking to me, but stated it is up to his discretion to violate Fillip for entering into liquor establishments, abusing women, etc. Which Michael himself has failed to violate Fillip Kosorukov for any of the above. Rather, he yells at victims and police officers in support of his inmate. That is the level of law we have protecting us from predatory behavior.
There are other recordings and emails that I could post that show Michael yelling at me, the victim. I can post the recordings of Michael saying that Fillip would have to “admit on a stand” that he violated in order to violate his terms. I know as a fact this is not true nor how probation is upheld for people universally. The gross failure and negligence of Probation and Parole is still the same as it was in 2017 and that is why this site is up and I have a court date. As for Andrew, and people like him: please don’t do me any favors that end up hurting me in the end because of whatever overwhelming need to protect your name or the perpetrator Fillip Kosorukov are. It is of no help.
I keep being told that the officers that run Probation and Parole are under staffed and over booked with individuals they have to monitor. As I was told “grown ass men they have to babysit” and this is why going through there office was an avenue I should have never taken. I should have always called the police on 4/4/18. I should have kept calling them for every violation. Contacting probation has done nothing but show me the lengths that people we trust to protect us from the violent individuals being released from prison will go to in order to cover for them, make excuses for them, while they demonize, disbelieve, and yell at victims who come forward about new abuses. At best it is a joke, at worse it is the office that holds the burden for Fillip Kosorukovs continued disgusting behavior and violation of law.
Thank you members of Albuquerque and New Mexico, as well as around the globe for sharing this site with other women. Thank you for believing victims. It is a sad day when a women feels like the only way justice will ever be sought is by making someone go viral. But hey! Isnt that what #MeToo and #TimesUp showed us?
Please KEEP POSTING and SHARING and TALKING with people you know who may know Fillip Dimitri Kosorukov.
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This section is very important because it covers 6/18-8/18. There are other things on this site, so I hope you finish it, however Fillip is on a current sexually deviant track, and if you should come on this page- read these messages and hear these recordings. One pair from 6/26/18 and from 7/22/18. Also, to the "friends" viewing this page, please give a listen to the 6/22/18 recording.
Followed a month later, no audio, as this is the same pattern... established 7/23/2018::
At the time of the march, he was verbally abusing his female boss. Shortly after the march Fillip cyber bullied a female on Facebook. Shortly after the march Fillip physically assaulted a female in her own home because she was trying to get him out of her house.. Here is "Ownership" from Fillip Kosorukovs' own creation:
A recording for Fillips healthy friends who are appalled by this website, please listen below:
Please remember that New Mexico is a one-party state, and Fillip has been aware that his calls were being recorded for accountability and the protection of women.
Fillips claim to LGBTQ causes:
Another issue Fillip has is making excuses for his sexually harmful behaviors by painting a pretty picture of excuses in order to lessen the impact of harmful sexual behaviors.
Relapes and excuses and how that is tied to Fillips use of Social Media::
Rather than choosing healthy coping mechanisms and friends that will help him out of trouble, Fillip chooses to cover-up his crimes, looks for instant gratification, and falls back to associating with people who do drugs. As of 8/17/2018 this is Fillips same behavior. Who he hangs out with. His idea of "getting better".